hi friends! First of all, I gave this space a little refresh so you might notice page structure, fonts and colors are a bit different now. I threw this page together 2.5 years ago on a whim…more interested in starting before I lost my nerve than perfection. It felt nice to revisit with a little more intention. Let me know what you think!
Anyway, I am coming off a weeklong work trip in Chicago, a city that I find fascinating but have not had time to explore. I met some rad humans, ate some delicious food, and got completely wiped out by a week of being intensely in-person with other humans. I have always been very good at performing “good employee,” a skill that immigrant parents instill early out of necessity, but I find that after many years of working my My Thing To Work On TM, I am setting better boundaries, showing up as myself, and feeling more secure in my ability to find a way to survive.
There is a negative societal idea of the addict as someone who will do absolutely anything to get access to their substance. And sure, did I do things I regret to people I care about while I was drinking? Yes. Did I also show up for a hell of a lot, love my people, do my best, and creatively create the conditions I needed to survive? Also yes! We are a resilient people, and I think that part of us who will always figure out a way forward is something worth celebrating and honoring in sobriety.
you don't know what's good for you
One of my toxic traits is that I am currently working on embodiment and I won’t stop talking about it. I am sick of it, my therapist is sick of it, and you are also possibly sick of it! My point is, if you so much as *think* the word “body” I will probably start talking to you about the challenges of embodiment.
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